I’m not ready for dating yet

I saw VE today. I told him I didn’t want to do the man/woman/dating thing. I’d been thinking about it for awhile and know it’s the right decision.

When I was actually with him, though, I didn’t feel as sure.  He looked really cute today and I just wanted to reach over and hold his hand or something.  

When I told him how I felt though, he was fine. We were fine.  We had a nice afternoon.

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I just got off the phone with my brother, M.  We’re close.  I told him about my day and about how fragmented I’ve been feeling.  He said “of course you are.  I could’ve told you that. If you weren’t feeling that way right now, with all you’re doing, I’d think you were crazy.”

Thanks M.  Perspective checks.  Always good.  Life can be complicated.  I’m moving towards clearing my head.